i'm resetting again this week. going to try to stay sober the whole week.

i didn't do much except read comments about the breakdown of the trade deal between the US and Canada. Donald Trump is a fucking idiot. i'm not gonna pretend like i know everything about this but i do know that the details were so stupid and literally were all limits imposed on Canada to try to control them and try to further this stupid 51st state bit. why the fuck would Canada want to be part of the US? Canada's not the ones who are in a 40 trillion dollar deficit. they're not in endless wars, most immediately on with Iran. Canadians don't go in debt because they don't have universal healthcare. Why would they want to live in a country where making $65,000 a year is "effective unemployment"? They gained 75,100 while the US lost 23,000 in July. Basically anyone who thinks the US is the one who's winning anything is a fucking idiot, Canada is thriving because they actually have leaders who are competent-- i wish America was anything like that.

Ray Wise was speaking at the Indie today. wish i had gone but, i just feel like i have to stay in my depression room and try to either clean or pretend like i'm going to play guitar. i keep getting videos on imageland recommended about cleaning or organizing hoarder houses or homes of people going through postpartum. i wish i had the money to hire someone to help. i guess i really can't do this on my own but i also don't have anyone who can help. fuck my stupid Latina life.

Song of the Post (SOTP): Beach House - Wishes