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is this your celebrated summer?

Today I’m at my grandmas house (not my actual grandmother, but definitely my surrogate grandmother)

I’m excited because I’m working on a couple things actually:

꩜ I took digicam photos today while Lily and I hung out running errands. we went to the plant shop, and got coffee at the campus where Lily lives and I took photos of her lovely surroundings.

꩜ I started reading Sophocles’ Antigone, I’m hoping to do a video talking about Antigone and maybe one other book very soon

꩜ I think this weekend my big goal will be working on screenprinting— like it would be so cool to actually screenprint something. I’m gonna try to document it here

꩜ I’m reading more tech stuff in preparation for working on three websites. I don’t always think of myself as a super technical person, but my syncretic nature has always helped me in my career as much as it’s helped me in my creative life.

꩜ I’m listening to new music! Also imagining myself finally writing and playing music too

A lot of the work today primarily has been imagining and dreaming about things I want to work on.

Sometimes imagining and dreaming are just as important as planning and creating! I know that a lot of people in the "straight world" would disagree and say it’s a waste of time, but as artists we cannot fall for that propaganda!

But also I’m a little sad because I feel like I’ve been wasting my summer, I haven’t done anything really fun. I’ve been cooped up in my room for the most part because it’s so hot and also my body has been demanding it.

My favorite pastime is just planning trips on google maps— researching places I want to go, looking up stuff on instagram, or taking wiki walks around the place i want to visit. Even though it's not the same as physically being ther, it can be fun too. there’s a ton of places I’d like to visit this summer but we’ll see if I’ll be physically and financially able.

I want to eat blueberries, go to the beach, take photos, travel, eat good food... I don’t know there’s a lot that I want to do I guess, but also I feel like I’m already doing a little bit of it, so that’s helped not feel so bad about not being able to go as full force as i wish.

I’m learning to like myself again. I think there are many times throughout your life were you are allowed to feel disappointed with how you’ve been acting and how things have turned out— but you’re doing a disservice if you only believe the bad things about yourself.

I mean, if I believed all the shitty things about me that my brain comes up with I would never have gotten to connect with people the way I do and publish zines or have founded my zine community. getting to share my small, little life with other people— it means so much. that I have the ability to really reach people with words and anyone cares about what I have to say is the whole reason I stay alive.

My motto this summer is Keep The Faith, as corny as it sounds

This summer is going to be amazing,

XOXO, A★

SOTN: Gold Soundz - Pavement