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Bloody Sunday

It’s Sunday and I’m taking time to reflect at a bar called Gallery House.

Today I actually had a lot of fun talking to one of my few friends in Charlotte, Esai. Esai and I met while we were traveling in a completely different city and realized that we were both from Charlotte and created a sort of bond when we returned. It’s funny because we would never have met otherwise, Charlotte is so isolating and I am incredibly grateful we were able to meet. We started at this coffee shop called Thousand Hills were we caught up with each other. Afterwards we went to a German brewery, Gilde, and got drinks and a treat.

Both Esai and I love to travel and are planning to potentially collaborate on a travel zine. Traveling is one of my favorite things in the world, but like i’ve said in previous posts, there are a couple of things I’m dealing with that make everything so uncertain. But there are so many things I want to accomplish, I can’t give up, as much as i feel very pessimistically about things. I’m really relived that my friends (especially Esai) are there for me and helping me pick my face up off the concrete.

What sucks about Sunday is that you have this intangible feeling that you can make the upcoming week great, even if there is no proof of this — but this time I’m bolstered by my conversation with Esai: travel is not something that i should be good at but at this point i feel like i am, i broke free from the voice that said that its not for me, because traditionally nobody is good at it and it makes me really happy. So why can’t this be true for art too?

So here’s my deal right now: i am going to trust myself even though i have no reason to and i am going to make a plan for the upcoming week:

I’m pushing my goal for this weekend (to finish my screen print) into next week because I haven’t worked on any of it at all.

So here’s my deal right now: i am going to trust myself even though i have no reason to and i am going to make a plan for the upcoming weekend.

I do have an application deadline for the 15th, I’m trying to submit for a comic arts festival that I’m not sure if i’ll get into it, but it would be really cool and it would be my first time at a comics festival and not a zine fest.

Monday - need to work on my application for the comics festival. need to wear my retainer. also want to work on getting access to a printer. need to work on my zines! would like to practice guitar if possible.

Tuesday - meeting with my friend Vanessa, hopefully getting some work done.

Wednesday - hanging out with Lily, I always seem to get good work done at her house honestly

Thursday - reassess goals for the upcoming week, clean room, throw things away. go to studio. work on earthie. work on my screenprint and finish it (in one day? YES! I don’t have a choice!!!!)

Friday - keep reading, work on website, specifically the index page, get coffee at a fancy coffee place as a treat and go watch In the Mood For Love at the Indie!!!!

So that’s the plan, I’m sure none of it will look the way I imagine it will, but that’s just what I have to accept as the price for being A★— but I hope at least some of it does come to pass. Life is short and i have to make the most of it. I am so lucky to be me and to have what I have, i would be cheating myself if I didn’t make the most of it. Remember: “If you’re truly wild at heart, you’ll fight for your dreams”

Thanks for trusting me with your time, it means a lot to me.

Besos
- A★

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